Wednesday, February 18, 2004

How Important is the Numbering?

I finished my thesis today. Wrote out the Abstract. Generated the Table of Figures. Wrote out the Acknowledgements and the Dedication. All finished!!!! And I start printing the whole thing out - making 4 copies - as soon as I finish this blog. On a home printer that takes a while per page. I expect to take hours and perhaps days getting this all done.

I didn't follow the instructions concerning the numbering. I've had trouble adding and or changing the numbering before, and don't want to risk a catastrophic collapse of my file. Is that silly paranoia? I have a copy attached to a message, safe in cyberspace, and a copy burned on a disk. Maybe I should give it a try?

I dreamed about returning to work last night. I was in a new office with a bed in it. What does that mean? It was rather barren and people from another department that I "knew" - in the dream but not in life - kept coming in because this was their office too. There was one guy, and he was really upset because it was going to be a noisy place and could only work where it was quiet. I offered to get the bed moved out and give him whatever space he wanted in the area I had been in. Is that my "male energy" and is he a whiner who gets women to give him what he want? Or does dream interpretation not work that way? I don't know. I am just worried about what will happen when I go back I guess.

My mate/significant other/life partner/ whatever leave for foreign climes tomorrow for a month. I'm curious about how I will react and feel; guess I'll be finding out soon.

Sunday, February 15, 2004

Do Introverts Read More?

I've been wondering if being an introvert is part of why I read so much. It would be a logical assumption. If you enjoy people only in small doses, and you like being by yourself (and have a limited interest in TV) reading would be the perfect way of spending time. I've been able to figure this out because only some of my reading is "status" reading. I have a taste for pulp fiction. No, I have a need for non-challenging, low-brow reading.

When I am overstimulated by people or fraught events, I calm down by losing myself in a book with a strong and familiar plot. Going over the same ground plot-wise, with different details and costumes, takes all the chaotic feelings and thoughts and smoothes them into a meditative peacefulness, and then I can sleep.

I read interesting, challenging informative books during the day, and pulp in the evening and sometimes late into the night. I don't read just to learn more; I read to affect my affect. (Sorry, couldn't resist play with the verb and the noun which look alike but are pronounced differently!) I read because it's an enjoyable way to spend time, not to benefit or boast. (I often, as here, don't reveal exactly what kind of pulp fiction I indulge in. Lots of judgmental attitudes here, eh?) Knowing that I read for reasons that don't get me "points' in the status game is what caused me to wonder if reading is a function of my being an introvert. Guess I'll never know unless someone sends me some stories about why they read or some research data.